It’s Five am on the first morning. I didn’t sleep at all last night due to the caffeine drink I foolishly consumed after 4pm when I was only just headed back to my house to load up our RV. It was my first time driving it and I wanted to be extra sharp. Seemed like a good idea at the time. I say that a lot.
As I type I notice that I only broke four out of ten nails on my first day so that must be some kind of a record!
Going back to the drive from the RV place home to load up. I ran late getting to the dealership but once I got there the explanation of what to do with this Rig took over an hour which I did not anticipate. The more the east Indian gentleman went on the more I realized that there was no way anyone could remember all of these details and that I would mainly be relying upon the user manual which I hoped was fairly easy to go over. I also had to stop myself from bobbing my head to the right and left as all of the East Indian people did when I visited Hyderabad years ago. It was an unusual characteristic and it fascinated me to the point of hypnotic rudeness. I’m not sure if I bobbed or not.
Thank Goodness I learned during my Doula training that just like birth, LIFE is not a script to be followed but merely a road with signs of course, guidelines along the way to heed or, well, choose to ignore (caffeine).
As we finally made our way on the 210 towards Big Bear I had tears in my eyes because I realized that basically all of my dreams are coming true. I have wanted, no, Dreamt of doing a trip like this since I was a little girl. I am doing it. I have two beautiful children. I am in love with a wonderful man with a powerfully good soul. The tears streamed down my cheeks as the Sun set behind us and I realized that it is all because of the support and love of my family and of course my Sobriety, which I am so in love with. These things remind me how connected to source I am. To God.
Speaking of God, there is nothing I dislike more at the moment than twisty mountain roads in the dark!!! Also why was it that even though I was going a terrifying 40MPH on these black and winding roads there needed to be fifty cars behind me all of which apparently had a woman in labor inside needing to be RUSHED through the mountains???? It was ten pm by the time we made it to our site and I plugged us in and we went to bed so I could lay awake ALL night thinking about my Daughter at sleep away camp, my handsome boyfriend and all of the things I needed to do the next day to get us to the next spot before ten pm so I could eat food and get some sleep!!! Oh and I was also thinking about how I would be getting used to flushing out the BLACK TANK. So many things to look forward to in a dreadful and wonderful way?? First day stuff. I feel fantastic!!!
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